Week One

Things started out great.  I started using My Fitness Pal to help me keep track of my calories (which they suggested were 1480).  I have not had a diet coke in two weeks and I try to walk the dog whenever I can.  Then came the family gatherings.  I had two in one day; a baby shower and a cook-out.  I really tried to be good at the baby shower but by the time I got to the cook-out all bets were off.  I had two pieces of cake!!  Instead of jumping back on the horse the next day I just repeated all of my bad habits over and over again!!  So here I am, just over a week in and I have gained weight!!  No surprise there.....my body seems to want to weigh 291.  I am so upset with myself and I really want to sit down and have a pity fest but I have to go to work soon. 

So here I am, sitting here wondering if I will ever be able to do this.  We go to Disney in less than 4 months and I am seriously worried that I will not fit on the rides.  I have to get my butt in gear but am in need of some serious help.  This is so hard and if you have never been overweight and a food addict you just don't understand.  Try to think about giving up your favorite thing in the world and you might understand. 

So here goes.  I am going to stay off of the scale until July 1 so that I will not get discouraged and will have to make myself walk more.  I have to do this!!  I am miserable and I want to be able to keep up with my husband and kids!!